On the 20th February 2003, my amazing, wonderful, and lovable son, Connor was lost to us all forever.
He passed away at 5:15 a.m. due to a chest infection, which, to be honest, took us all by surprise.
He was my inspiration for everything I do now online, and he made me change in so many ways in the short four years and eight months that he was around.
If it wasn't for him I would still be complaining about my nine-to-five job.
If it wasn't for him I would still be moaning about how 'unlucky' I was.
If it wasn't for him I would still be just an average 'occassionally there' parent.
If it wasn't for him I would still be so intolerant about so many things in this world.
He couldn't make a sound. Doctors were never convinced that he could hear.
But...boy! Did his smile and silent laugh light up the lives of everyone who had the pleasure to meet him.
I'm a lucky man. I had over four years of stress and worry...yet had the same amount of time just learning about life from a wonderful little "daddy's boy".
His funeral is tomorrow...and it still hasn't really sunk-in that I will never be able to tickle him, hug him, or just hold him upside down ever again.
It breaks my heart...but I know that he has made his mark on this world...and changed for the better so many lives of people who met and got to know him.
It was my honour to care for someone who totally changed my thinking about what is important in this world.
He could only communicate with a smile...yet he affected so many lives with his amazing cheerfulness despite all of his setbacks.
Connor James Vurnum will forever live in my heart as the person who has affected me more than any other person in my life.
He was my inspiration...and my special little boy.
Night, night, sweetheart. Daddy misses you so much...yet he knows that somehow, somewhere you are with him when he looks hard enough.
I will carry on my personal 'crusade' in your name...as I did when you were still with me. I promise that I won't let all your effort go to waste.
Sleep tight. xxxxx
Posted by vurnumg
